Its been quite some time since I wrote a good blog...Though, some may argue that all my blogs are good. On the contrary, some blogs I've written SCARE even me.
So, life is good. I live and breathe. I've been in a depressed state lately. Hell, classic textbook case, or maybe not. I've been sadly mistaken in many things.
So, here it is...a blog...a sermon on the mount, maybe....a dull read...maybe not.
I am in love with a man...yay! Whether the relationship works out is the question but I am not talking about it and you can't make me. I have but one complaint - I want what I want when I want it and just like other humans....I want it now. Instant gratification instead of savoring the little time we have together. Let's face fact here, Eunice is scared to death of relationships....well, cause as strong as I am, I always give in to being an idiot....
Yes, back to the topic, I have been in a depressed state, so depressed that not even my inspirational postings on another social network have helped me to feel inspired every day. I have been unhappy about many things. I have been feeling lost and confused these last months. Other than the few bright spots, I have been lost....
I'd like to expound but I am slowly learning to think before I blog. HA! a BIG HEARTY GUFFAW...think before I blog!!! I'd like to make a point about this but I am just getting back to blogging and like the little kid who enters the pool from the shallow end dipping her toe before taking the cannon ball plunge, I am a little leery.
I do not blog to give or get advice. I blog to get the sh!t that is in my head OUT of my head. I think that is what keeps me sane. I love to talk about myself...I want to babble like I used to but I am somehow censored. I suppose one might say that I just don't have it in me any longer. This is untrue. I have mediocre talent with big ideas. So, I start small and dream big...there is nothing wrong with that at all.
So, here I sit in my little apartment in Central Connecticut which, I like to refer to as the four walls that otherwise would be a padded cell, thinking about this blog that I am in the process of writing while I am writing it. I can tell you that I am waiting patiently for my children to fall asleep so I can take a nice ten minute shower because the water doesn't run for long before the hot is out.....
I can tell you that I am sitting on the good ship lollipop. I can tell you that I have survived a boat load of bullsh!t in this lifetime. I can praise God for the little miracles in this lifetime. I can write about the fact that child support is finally coming through after nearly two years of wait....and laugh that the ex from hell actually thinks well....nevermind about that now.
I would love to be manic at this moment in time and babble incessantly about nonsense but really I have an agenda and it is truly unfortunate for you kind reader that I must take a break now.......because I feel I've said "I" WAY too much in this blog and that I've revealed nothing inventive here other than to show that I am a bit narcissistic like the next person.....I have a mission just not about to release it to the general redhedd public just yet....
For now, BE WELL!
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