Hello folks!
I am FINALLY starting to feel better! I have had ups and downs since October but that comes within the territory known as life. Some of us have it worse than others and I am sure that someone else out there in the world has a much worse situation than I do so I won't complain too much about my life.
Let me see what to blog about. I have so much to say. I am in a relationship with a man that lives two states away from me. I dumped the last one who lived 15 minutes away from me because he had too many issues to beetroot with. Not to mention he was being aloof and I just don't do aloof anymore. I was naive in that situation but really that's my trusting nature. I could b!tch and moan about it but I will not. Instead I will say that no matter which way the road leads he will always be my friend.....and the door is closed on that for now. If he wants to make concessions to attempt to return, I would consider the fact that I have a very special someone in my life now.
I want to talk about the new man but am being reserved so as not to get overly excited about it as I have done in the past. My past experiences have shaped a new and improved me. I feel like a commercial for a stronger Eunice.
Ohhhhhh-kay.......I miss the last man....I had a sense of comfort with him but know that he is emotionally unavailable and basically full of shiznit. We all want what we can't have and for many a month I was longing for something that was unattainable with him. Hell, I can't even come up with a reason for missing him. Perhaps it is the idea of him that I miss. I have digitized and refreshed that scenario so many times in my mind that I can honestly say that it is over. I have deleted all phone numbers from the Blackberry to remove any temptation to contact him. Thank God too because I just can't bring myself to pull myself through embarrassment after embarrassment again. He didn't live up to my standards anyway. I overlooked the fact that he couldn't spell - that's sad.
For those here, that really know me - you all know that at one time I promised myself that I had a set of standards posted as to potential suitors and one of the standards was that I could hold intelligent conversation with a person who could use grandiose words and actually know what they mean and how to spell them. Hell, he couldn't even spell depression......depretion....COME ON NOW. Yet, it is my fault for falling for him.....with his charismatic ways.....or was it that I backed him in to a corner that he gave me a small glimpse of him for but a moment then backed away when it got too serious....I think the latter.
Whatever, I have my new man and he is too good to me. To travel over 100 miles just to spend a day and a half with me, goes to the grocery whilst I am at work to purchase items for my household that he knew I needed. To care enough to let me cry on his shoulder over things that I should not be discussing with him. I am not afraid of this one. He is just like me.....I mean really this one is just like me intellectually - he writes his own blogs; casts pods (podcasting); and just has the same sense of humor. It is almost too good to be true.
I am still keeping my guard up because I am scared to death due to my past experiences and the whole not working out thing.....but have a positive feeling about this one. A VERY positive feeling about this one.....I still have the Cinderella complex, too...so maybe just maybe this one is my prince charming.....yeah, he is. :)
Enough blogging for now.... I will write more later about the other happenings in my life......like school, and kids, and life.
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