Hi folks,
Time for another turgid post from me.
This one is different for me though, I am scared beyond belief as I write this blog. My wife is at the doctor's surgery asking what a lump she has found in her breast might be. I am not with her because getting to the surgery is nearly impossible for me with my disability. Holy f*cking Christ, I am so damned scared right now! I know that sounds very self centred considering the fact that I am not the one with the lump but it is how I feel and there is no hiding from it.
My wife is my world; she is my best friend, my confidant, my lover, my soul mate, mother to our girls, the reason for me to get up every day. How the hell am I supposed to face life without her if she has the worst possible thing that damn lump could be?
I accept that it could be anything from a group of fat cells to a very virulent carcinoma that will kill her in months. The chances are that it is nothing but because she has beaten cervical cancer in the past, I am terrified that cancer has returned.
I have nobody to speak to at the moment and my brain is going nuts! Jesus this is insane, God protect my wife.
Tags: Scared Shi*less
