Preface: The names in this blog have been changed not to protect the innocent but the poor bastard doesn’t deserve a name – he is a waste of space on earth; hence, he shall be referred to as “Satan the ex from hell” (we all know Satan is from hell but it serves its purpose).
Incidentally, yesterday (or was it Thursday- who knows – who cares) Satan the ex from hell called and spoke with both children and told them that he would like to see them this weekend. In fact, he promised them that he would see them this weekend. I explicitly told him that I could not afford to meet him halfway to drop them off or to pick them up since the child support stopped. He said he would make arrangements to come to pick them up and drop them off. Apparently, he made no arrangements at all because we have been sitting here ALL flipping day waiting for him to come to pick them up.
My son is clearly upset and keeps asking me to call his father to see when he is coming. It is now 5pm. Its a no call/no show weekend yet again. See, as the days grow nicer it is more important for him to go out and about on his motorcycle probably hopping from bar to bar getting drunk. I spent 7 years with the bastard, I know his Modus Operandi. My daughter, on the other hand, has said nothing other than “He’s not going to answer the phone anyway so why bother?” She is a smart girl; although, I am sure it is affecting her, too but she would rather be here anyway.
The fact of the matter here is that he is a royal bastard that thinks only of himself. Yet, then I was sitting here and thought “Ooooo, maybe he is dead!” but then I thought “Oh that’s not a nice thing to say or even think!” Yet, who the heck cares, he is dead from the neck up, why can’t he just be dead altogether and then the children could then claim his social security benefits. What an awful thing to think about. Do not get me wrong, I do not wish him dead, I just think the children would be better off without him in their life.
He always makes promises that he never keeps and then the children are disappointed. When he has them, he does not do anything with them. His excuse will be that he couldn’t afford to put gas in his car OR that he couldn’t find someone to give him a ride out to pick them up and drop them off. See, he lives about 30 miles from where we live and about 2 months ago, I told him that I refuse to drive 30 miles both ways just so he could see the kids. I also told him that I am not going to force him to be a dad either. It is entirely up to him to make the arrangements with me to see them.
If he doesn’t want to see them, then that is his issue. Yet, I keep hoping for the sake of the children that he will change but I know in my heart of hearts that he won’t. He did the same things with the children’s four older siblings. Months would go by and they would not see him. At least, this is what I have been told. OR he would pick the older four up and dump them on his elderly mother and take off and do his own thing.
The only thing I am not doing is degrading him and talking about my disgust for him around the children. I want to tell them that their father (sperm donor) is a heartless, selfish, summon a biscuit eater, and he is not reliable. I think that they will find all that out on their own. (For those that do not know what summon a biscuit eater is, it means son of a b!tch). I just sit back, relax, and watch how he is ruining his already faltering relationship with them. The one it affects the most is my son, he worships the man and he can’t understand why his father does these things.
Then it falls on me, I have to beetroot with the behaviors. I have to beetroot with hearing my son wish he was never born or say that he wants to die. I have to beetroot with the abandonment issues that they both are experiencing. My daughter is very much like me, sensitive and strong. You cannot really tell if things are bothering her but once you get her talking about it, she doesn’t stop. My son holds it all in and then starts with negative self-talk, calling himself stupid and also has attached himself to me so much so that he cannot sleep in his own room. At one time, I asked him why he needs to sleep with me, he said “Because, I don’t want you to leave me, too!”
What kind of an ah-noos allows their children to feel this way. He is still in denial that they have any issues. He has never gone to doctor appointments for them. He does understand that they are on the Autism spectrum but yells at them when they are having some issues that they can’t help. For instance, yelling at my son because he is making noise (ya have to know him to know what noises I am talking about). Satan the ex from hell just does not give a crap about anybody but himself and only does things when it is convenient for him.
He also has no concept of time. His ten minutes is more like an hour and a half. I cannot tell you how many times the children and I have waited for him for this 10 minutes (hour and a half)! He is just a ridiculous waste of space on this earth. Cannot even call to say, “Hey, something came up, I will make it up to you next weekend.” Guess what fuck-tard, you aren’t getting them next weekend because it is a holiday weekend and we have company coming!
Random segway: I have not seen child support in three weeks. THAT’s a LONG time when you need to buy food and you are on a limited income. I only get paid once a month and the majority of that money goes to the household bills and I have very little left to purchase food for the month. Get with the program buddy. I know he was lying to me when he said that his unemployment benefits ran out because he seemed so nonchalant about it. He has a job and I am sure that child support enforcement will catch up with his sneaky ass. He was supposedly going to send me the letter to prove his unemployment ran out but that was a promise he made three weeks ago and I have yet to get that letter in the mail. UG!!!!!
I am wasting too much time talking about Satan the ex from hell. In my opinion, he is not worth the words on this page. Hey, what can I say? You hurt my children, watch the firetruck (remove the iretr) out!!!
Thank you for reading!
Have a nice day!
There were no animals harmed in the making of this blog but I do feel the need to kill a garden snake aka Satan the ex from hell!
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