I am listening to music and no, it's not the halleluiah chorus....It's Indigo girls actually! Strange Fire....
"When you learn to love yourself, you will dissolve all the stones that are cast..."
Truer words were never spoken....
Anywho - Eunice is loving herself these days and no, not in a eh-hem ya know kind of way. I just have a whole lot to say and don't know how to say it.
I am VERY random at the moment - one thousand apologies....
Okay, okay, I will tell ya'll and I am astonished that all of you redds that know me on Facebook didn't notice that my relationship status has changed.......
Eunice is in love - has a true one on the hook. He loves me back! He's sweet, kind, loving, funny, sporty, and bigger than life! I am dubbing him Sir Crankyponts....for now. I will introduce you to him via photos as soon as we get some.
I am trying to keep this hush so as not to overwhelm you all with my excitement not to mention the fact that I had my nails done and I can't type.....Errrrr????
Anyway, I miss writing my blogs - but I am on a vacation for a little while.....
I have so much to say but not knowing how to say it sucks!!!! Which, as most of you who actually read my blogs know, it's a bizarre thing that I don't have much to say....
I am quiet.....I miss my man ......he is on his way to the blasted Daytona 500 - wanted me to go with him - just take the time off and go but I fear I would not have a job when I returned...lol
Okay - that's enough.....I will write more when my spirits are up - I am not feeling well today which is exacerbating my "blah" feeling..
YES - I am in love...................
I've been proposed to.....WOW -
Asked to have a baby.......not sure about this one....have to think long and hard.
I am just plain old feeling loved........
Okay, I am going to stop beating the hell out of the bush...
This is a man whom I had a whirlwind - we don't know how to define it - romance that started at least 12 years ago....and lasted on and off for about three years! We clicked but both had a severe case of intercranial rectal syndrome. When I finally moved on and in with SATAN - the ex from hell and father of my children, I had to lose contact with my undefined beau because it would have been awkward....
Anyway, I feel as though I should star in my own lifetime movie event that is a romantic comedy of sorts....not sure.
He is amazing and all grown up....I am feeling a little badly because I have a little skepticism....because of past pain...but I can get past it.
We reconnected less than a week ago, and that's the whole reason for feeling as if this is a romantic comedy that should appear on Lifetime....I asked him if he hit his head and why all of the sudden does he want to marry me, have my baby, and well, it's been less than a week. WAIT - we know eachother from the past. Maybe I have changed? I know he has changed and matured for the better which is a great thing! He is amazing....didn't I tell you that already?
So, what the hell am I so damned afraid of? Am I becoming reserved and not ballsy? HElp me - I love him....
What an odd thing, I love him and have known him for years, jumping through hoops for me, loves me back, wants to know my children and be there for them. Who could have constructed a better guy? He's even promised to make dinner and have it ready for me when I arrive home from work....holy WOW...
The only question on my mind is why so quick to propose? AM I that amazing that he wants to grab hold of me and never let go? I trust him and feel safe with him. I know everything about him and he about me....I feel SAFE. People, SAFETY is the most important thing in the world to me.....
Okay, I don't really need help because I have made my decision to take it as it comes and get to know him again and work toward the previously thought unattainable ideal for me.... I really thought that I would be alone forever, that nobody on this earth would ever want to be with me.....it was drilled in to my head for years, people - of course, by Satan.
Thank you for reading my random but very focused and literal blog.
I love Mr. Eunice!
Love your friend,
Eunice Crankyponts
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